[for a moment, he's quiet, fingers tracing gently over knuckles and callused skin. He wants to say something, but he doesn't want to upset the other or say the wrong thing... and it's hard to admit, even after this time.]
I don't just agree to be your mate. I want to be your mate. I want to keep waking up like this, warm and happy. But I am selfish... there's a not insignificant part of me that would love to run away from all of this with you. To escape every one of my duties, and the people who only see me as the infallible priest, perfect and holy.
I... [If he thinks about it, it's probably clear in just how fearless he'd been approaching Basch the first time. True, there was a draw to him, but the fact is... if he'd died or been maimed, if anything happened, it would have given him an escape from his life. And he can admit he'd considered it, back then.] ... I'm glad I met you. I don't know what I would have done if I was stuck like that for much longer.
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[for a moment, he's quiet, fingers tracing gently over knuckles and callused skin. He wants to say something, but he doesn't want to upset the other or say the wrong thing... and it's hard to admit, even after this time.]
I don't just agree to be your mate. I want to be your mate. I want to keep waking up like this, warm and happy. But I am selfish... there's a not insignificant part of me that would love to run away from all of this with you. To escape every one of my duties, and the people who only see me as the infallible priest, perfect and holy.
I... [If he thinks about it, it's probably clear in just how fearless he'd been approaching Basch the first time. True, there was a draw to him, but the fact is... if he'd died or been maimed, if anything happened, it would have given him an escape from his life. And he can admit he'd considered it, back then.] ... I'm glad I met you. I don't know what I would have done if I was stuck like that for much longer.