[ It had been a long time since anyone he admired looked at him with anything but disgust or grief. This wasn't the same; he hadn't known Sylvain when they were young, hadn't fought alongside him or harbored love and affection and something else for months or years before it blossomed. But it's still overwhelming to see that approval and want.
More than once, with the effects of the lead worn off, he'd wondered what he was doing here, felt like a plains hare ready to bolt back to safety, and then Sylvain had caught his shoulder or his face and so, unbelievably, here he was.
The way the other man so quickly brushes the collar, cups his face and strokes his lip like he's some favored object, has that fear bubbling in his chest again. Danger. Impropriety.
But -- ]
As have I.
[ He couldn't help it, not after how magical it had been, and not after seeing Sylvain so pleased and wanting. Gods, he wanted to be kept. He had always wanted to be kept, by country or by lover. ]
I wondered if I would change my mind, but I wish to be here.
[ Magic or no, Sylvain was different than the others. Here, in Ivalice. Something had caught him, and at least today, he wasn't able to turn away. It was like being a boy enamored again. ]
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More than once, with the effects of the lead worn off, he'd wondered what he was doing here, felt like a plains hare ready to bolt back to safety, and then Sylvain had caught his shoulder or his face and so, unbelievably, here he was.
The way the other man so quickly brushes the collar, cups his face and strokes his lip like he's some favored object, has that fear bubbling in his chest again. Danger. Impropriety.
But -- ]
As have I.
[ He couldn't help it, not after how magical it had been, and not after seeing Sylvain so pleased and wanting. Gods, he wanted to be kept. He had always wanted to be kept, by country or by lover. ]
I wondered if I would change my mind, but I wish to be here.
[ Magic or no, Sylvain was different than the others. Here, in Ivalice. Something had caught him, and at least today, he wasn't able to turn away. It was like being a boy enamored again. ]