[ Basch just holds him, letting him say what he needs to. He doesn't know, but he's guessing this is the first time some of this has seen the light of day. He knows that feeling, when the plug gets pulled and the words keep coming. He's been on both sides of it.
And it makes him ache, that this sweet man has been so utterly alone. At least that's something Basch can help with, even if he can do little for the rest. ]
It's a hard life [ he repeats. ] And the younger we are, the less control and perspective we have. I used to tell myself I would return to Landis and discover what I wanted from my life when the occupation ended. It never ended. By then, I'd been a solider for so long...I didn't know anything else. And I was good at it. But I'd failed my country, and I'd failed my family, and I'd failed in my role.
[ There's no real emotion to it. He's far enough away that it's just facts of his narrative. But he does understand. It had hurt for a long time. Probably still does; it's just scarred over.
Losing his home again had been...that wasn't healed yet. ]
What do you want? No, too difficult a question, I think. What parts of your role do you genuinely like?
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Date: 2024-06-05 09:02 pm (UTC)And it makes him ache, that this sweet man has been so utterly alone. At least that's something Basch can help with, even if he can do little for the rest. ]
It's a hard life [ he repeats. ] And the younger we are, the less control and perspective we have. I used to tell myself I would return to Landis and discover what I wanted from my life when the occupation ended. It never ended. By then, I'd been a solider for so long...I didn't know anything else. And I was good at it. But I'd failed my country, and I'd failed my family, and I'd failed in my role.
[ There's no real emotion to it. He's far enough away that it's just facts of his narrative. But he does understand. It had hurt for a long time. Probably still does; it's just scarred over.
Losing his home again had been...that wasn't healed yet. ]
What do you want? No, too difficult a question, I think. What parts of your role do you genuinely like?